Bittersweet
As Samuel's "Birth Day" draws near (just 7 more days), I've had to remind myself I won't be pregnant forever. I'm so used to it now, I forget I won't be this way for the rest of my life. Every once in a while I'll realize that I'm going to have a baby of my own that I get to keep! I'm not babysitting him and giving him back when his parents come home from their dinner date; I'm not teaching him all day and sending him home at 3:00. He's ours forever! I've waited so many years for this (since I was little myself) that it's hard to believe the time is here.
I've had it pretty easy these last nine months. I haven't had any major complications, and was lucky enough to avoid most of the minor pregnancy symptoms that I know are so common. And yet, there are a few things won't miss:
*indegestion
*those painful kicks *ouch*
*my stuffy nose
*constant trips to the potty
*hanging out in the waiting room of my OB
*having to sleep on my side
*my clothes not fitting over my belly
*having to pass up my favorite foods (sushi, coffee, deli sandwiches!)
...and most of all...
*waiting
*wondering
*worrying
There are lots of things I
will
miss:
~my belly - it's just so cool
~the exciting anticipation of this new stage of our lives
~the newness of everything
~sharing in everyone's excitement; grandparents, collegues, strangers on the street...
~having an excuse to put on my jammies before dinner
~being told how cute my belly is - who wouldn't miss that?
~planning and decorating the nursery with Brian
~watching my tummy move in all sorts of crazy directions
~seeing Samuel, inside and outside, on the sonograms
...and most of all...
~feeling baby Sam kicking, rolling, twisting, turning!
What an adventure it's been.
And what an adventure awaits!
Get here soon, baby Sam. Mommy and Daddy are ready to meet you...
*Sara*
